Sunday, April 20, 2014

Bondage

As Passover draws to a close, I have been thinking of a challenge issued to me: identify the things in your life that are holding you in bondage, then do away with them.
Something that continues to cripple me is fear. I am deeply afraid of losing the one thing I've waited a lifetime for: J. There are many reasons, why, I suppose--the fact that she's a cop and has a dangerous job, for one. I've also lost many family members too soon to things like cancer. I suppose I also have a little fear that J will meet someone else. The point is, my fear is so great that it is preventing me from truly enjoying having met the love of my life.
But how then does one cast off the thing that holds them in bondage? I'm not entirely sure. I suppose the first step is simply to identify it. There is counseling, talking with friends, making art, writing. The path to freedom is full of possibilities if one is open to them. I am choosing to be open--the gift I have in J is just too precious to waste. I don't want to spend my life in fear; I want to spend it living joyfully with my beloved.


For J
Follow You, Follow Me by Genesis

Stay with me
My love, I hope you'll always be
Right here by my side if ever I need you
Oh, my love
In your arms
I feel so safe and so secure
And everyday is such a perfect day to spend
Alone with you
I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year
With the dark
Oh, I see so very clearly now
All my fears are drifting by me
So slowly now, fading away
I can say
The night is long but you are here
Close at hand, oh, I'm better for the smile you give
And while I live
I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year there will be
I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year
I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year
I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?



Songwriters
RUTHERFORD, MICHAEL/COLLINS, PHIL/BANKS, TONY